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Actually.
I wont moan too much.

The only thing I will moan about is that joyous pissing "literature review" ((I mean, whatTHEactualFUCK??!!))
I haven't got a clue what to do.
The other bit. The longer bit. Seems to be going ok.
Got 1/3 done today.

Still hurt my head mind.

SO.
This evening.
I have spent.
Reading the first hundred strips of Questionable Content.
So, if the B to the F reads this. He will be proud.
*pulls shmug face*


One more day in Rugby then it's back to ol' Lincoln.
Can't wait.

Now. Back to this reading thing.

OH OH OH!!! I had a really freaky dream last night.
I lived. In this. Like. MASSIVE house, because me and my family were famous/maybe the royal family.
But it wasn't MY family. But it was.
And. Me and my dad. Had this memory stick. Thing. And here was this lil tab in it you had to pull. But we pulled it. And this alarm went off. And we HAD to leave the house. But I got lost. And then there was someone missing. So I had to go and find them. And I went into this room. And it was a child's room. Just ONE child. But there were MILLIONS of beds over two floors. And there were ladders connecting the floors. And the walls were all. Like. Funky-child-like-walls. So I had a look round. And couldnt find this person. So went to leave. And someone was asleep. But it wasn't the person I was looking for. So I went out and shut the door. Then went on looking. Then this. Kind of. Hidden door in the wall appeared. So I opened it and went through. And there were some wooden stairs. So I started walking up them and then went through this trap door. And there was the person I was looking for. Apart from. They were screaming and I knew they were all mutant like and dead. So I had to close the door, but couldnt.
Then I decided to wake up.

That's what you get for eating cheese, thinking about stuff, and reading Stephen King before you go to bed.

Now back to this reading.

I'm just in a writey mood, y'know?

It's... 21:54 and I have done nothing constructive today...
Well, unless you count spending lots of money on the "sales" that aren't really sales anymore as constructive... but I think that would be pushing it.

Went and got the glorious A-Level certifcates today.
Jokes.
Wasn't much point to it really.
Ho hum.

As I said, went shopping...
and.
Erm.
That was kind of it.

Those 2000 words due for monday?
Yeah. They're still non-existant.
That's tomorrows challenge.
*Watch-this-space-for-moans-and-groans*

Oh. I also had to inform my landlord today whether I was staying on next year.
Which I'm not.
So i'm kind of excited about looking for a new place when I go back up to Lincoln.
(Which is on Sunday if any of ye art interested!)

Sunday. The 9th.
*shmug face*
:)

Hope you've all got your christmas deccys down.
(I know Cov' City centre haven't)
Bad luck for those of you that haven't.


Heeeeathens.





((OH OH OH!!!
I've kinda just developed the craving to get a tattoo.
Maybe some Frank Turner Lyrics?))

An End To 2010


I seem to start every blog on here the same nowadays.
Commenting on how I haven't written in... too long.
(Shame on me)

But yes. I haven't written in... too long!!
Soooo, I thought I better get my ass on here and write!

It's now 2011 (Jeez!) If you hadn't noticed!

So 2010. What of it?
2010 wasn't a bad year in all honesty.
Ok. It had it's highs and lows.
But still.
Certain moments I will never forget.

The year started off with me (properly) meeting Tim-o-thy back in January, and proceeded to spend a happy 8 months together before factors started to bum us out.
Jannuary... I was taken in hand and finally taken to the Zoo. Twycross Zoo to be precise! And saw Monkeys and Gorillas that apparently looked like Tims dad!
February saw my 18th and me offically becoming an adult! (Ooo-errr!) Even though it was on a Sunday, I had an ace weekend, and one which will not be forgotten! The Saturday with all my friends and the Sunday with my family! (And my Canon Camera!!!!!!!)
Late spring/ Early summer, whenever whatever it was, brought some very... difficult-ish times. 
June made it a year since Angelo died, which was difficult in itself, and then there was my final year of 6th Form ending and my A2 exams.
There was also a massive blow, when the sister was accepted then shortly rejected of the perfect job when a certain evil bitch uni decided to mess her around resulting in her not graduating.
However, the summer did bring her and her boyfriend finding and renting a laaaavely house back home here in Rugby and him bagging a promotion and transfer here also.
With exams ending, there was our Leavers Prom. Which again was a very memorable night. Seeing all my friends together (well, most of them) all dressed up in rags was a great way ending my two years with them. My two years with the Blue Coat bums were two of the best years of my life.
Was about this time I found Nicky amongst the dragons and we started having some severe chin wags which were always giggable within their own right.
But. The summer holidays brought nerves waiting for the results and it was weird having the first summer holiday to Wales without my big sis.
Back on English soil, and recieving the A-Levels results. To put it simply. Was a mega cock up aaaaaand a kick to the metaphotical balls as I didn't get into Uni. A day later after tears and screams and hours glued to the phone, I found a Uni that wanted me. So the tears and screams soon turned to smiles and me bagging a place at BG. (And also a pint at spoons if I remember rightly.)
Smiles even more so, since Speck was at the bottom of the hill, and I was joining Nicky at the top.
Going to Uni brought about a lot of change.
Moving away from my family. The first night. Was more difficult than expected. Yes, I cried.
However, my first day was made bareable by meeting up with Amy for the first time and shopping for light bulbs, and meeting up with Speck later that day and going out and getting very drunk in Lincoln town. I can't deny though that that night and the following early hours involving being rescued by meeting  Nicky for the first time, wasn't a deffinate highlight of my time in Lincoln
The first couple o weeks of  uni then saw some hardship as Uni took its toll on my relationship which then sadly ended. However, I like to think and hope that we're still very good friends!
Begining of October I trecked to Nottingham (No'ing'um) and went to my first ever Fair in the shape of the Goose Fair where I nearly died on life threatening rides. (But admittedly gained a dandy balloon in the process!) This day also saw the committed admitance of my feelings for Nicky.
Later that month was the little big sis' 23rd birthday (I still have to count four up on my fingers to make sure I get her age right!) and me having and failing my driving test for the first time. Which rather... fustrated and upset me since it was silly little things that made me fail.
December. Saw lots and lots of snow up in Lincoln. And also me trecking to Leicester to go and see Mr Frank Turner. Which will always be a deffinite highlight of my year as it was the first time I'd been to one of his gigs, and hopefully the first of many, as It was amazing.
Decemeber also saw my sister manadge to slit an artery in her hand and gain several billion stitches. (Ewwww!) And probably gain a pretty scar too.
Later on in the month I met Nickys extended family, which was very eventful! (Mmm, vodka sulshies!)
Then of course, Christmas. It was very weird not going to the usual Christmas services (since choir's gone to pot!) and not having my sister about Christmas morning but having the family over all day was like old times and I got pretty nifty presents!
New Year. I never do anything for New Year. So spending it with my lovely Nicky was an awesome way to end the year and start the new one.

So here we are.
2011.
What will it bring?

 


09-11-10

1 month! 
<3
:-)

Countdown - Letters I'll Never Send

The
10th of December was
9 days before I left, and there were
8 thousand words I should have been writing at
7 pm that night because I had
6 papers due but you needed a prop girl
5 minutes before the show and be
4 I knew it I was that girl and
3 drinks later I was way too drunk
2 walk myself home and you were the nice
1 who made sure I was okay and my heart went from
0 to 60 everytime you smiled at me.
1 week later at
2 in the morning, you walked me home again, and
3rd times the charm, I asked you to stay
4 the night because it was barely
5 degrees outside and I was falling for you out of
6 billion people in the world, despite only knowing you for
7 days. And now
8 months later, and
90 days since I told you I loved you, I thank god for the
10 days I had with you in December.

Oh, It's been FAR TOO LONG!!!!

Yes, yes alright. I'm slacking. Majorly.

But being a lady of work, i've been busy as a.. busy thing!


BUT! Last day o work today!!!!! (Y) *TheCrowdCheers*


Soooo. Update.

I moved my things into my new house yesterday.
Met one of the housemates...
I wont go into details.
It's safer that way.

Moving tomorrow. TOMORROW!!!!

Getting a bit nervy... and teary now.
(Going to miss certain people very very much D:)
I wasn't before.
But my good friend, realisation, is just starting to creep up on me.
Yes, that's right, the day before I go, I realise i'm actually going!




Been reading a lot of old convos as of late too.
Bad move.
Making me realise what I miss from the ol' days.




Anyhoo.
Watch out for Freshers news over the next few weeks!

Old man.


Todays been hard.
In more ways than one.



Got my keys today for m'new house.
Moving out, in, what, 2 weeks?
Scary much.




Drained as.



1st September...
Happy Birthday Angelo.

Would of been 20 today.
Old man.

Miss him too much.
R.I.P my giant plum.
Thinking of you always.



Tomorrow.
Start of work for the next two weeks.
Not looking forward to it.
Good amount of dosh though.
S'the only thing making me go.

Loving. Lyrics.

 

Lie to me - 12 stones
A candle burns away
The ashes full of lies
I gave my soul to you
You cut me from behind

Nowhere to run and nowhere to hide
You're scared of the truth, I'm tired of the lies
Cause who I am
Is where you want to be

Don't act like an angel
You've fallen again
You're no superhero
I've found in the end

So lie to me once again
And tell me everything will be alright
Lie to me once again
And ask yourself before we say good bye
Well good bye
Was it worth it in the end?

You said you were there for me
You wouldn't let me fall
All the times I shared with you
Were you even there at all?

Nowhere to run and nowhere to hide
You're scared of the truth, I'm tired of the lies
Cause who I am
Is where you want to be

Don't act like an angel
You've fallen again
You're no superhero
I've found in the end

So lie to me once again
And tell me everything will be alright
Lie to me once again
And ask yourself before we say good bye
Well good bye
Was it worth it in the end?

Why'd you have to up and run away
A million miles away
I want to close my eyes and make believe
That I never found you

Just when I put my gaurd away
It's the same old story
You left me broken and betrayed
It's the same old story




Life after you - Daughtry
Ten miles from town and I just broke down
Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road
I'm out here alone just tryin' to get home
To tell you I was wrong but you already know

Believe me I won't stop at nothin'
To see you so I've started runnin'

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter

As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

Last time we talked, the night that I walked
Burns like an iron in the back of my mind
I must've been high to say you and I
Weren't meant to be and just wastin' my time

Oh, why did I ever doubt you?
You know I would die here without you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

You and I, right or wrong, there's no other one
After this time I spent alone
It's hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind
Thinkin' 'bout the better times, must've been outta my mind
So I'm runnin' back to tell you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
Without it God knows what I'd do, yeah

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' 'bout all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through, yeah
Know there's no life after you



Nothingman - Pearl Jam
Once divided...nothing left to subtract...
Some words when spoken...can't be taken back...
Walks on his own...with thoughts he can't help thinking...
Future's above...but in the past he's slow and sinking...
Caught a bolt 'a lightnin'...cursed the day he let it go...

Nothingman...
Isn't it something?
Nothingman...

She once believed...in every story he had to tell...
One day she stiffened...took the other side...
Empty stares...from each corner of a shared prison cell...
One just escapes...one's left inside the well...
And he who forgets...will be destined to remember...

Nothingman...
Isn't it something?
Nothingman...

Oh, she don't want him...
Oh, she won't feed him...after he's flown away...
Oh, into the sun...ah, into the sun...

Burn...burn...
Nothingman...
Isn't it something?
Nothingman...
Nothingman...
Coulda' been something...
Nothingman...



And of course anything by MAXIMO PARK

Update...Tribute.

Havent written in a fair while.
Mybad.

Summers going alreeeet! (:
More to come! ;)

Summer holiday with the 'rents... was pretty good actually.
(:
I wont lie.
It wasn't as lame as I thought it would be.

Results. 19/08.
Were a bit shoddy, like.
Was a ruff day.

Light at the end of the tunnel.
Off to Bishop Grosseteste in Lincoln.
Education Studies and Music.
House viewing tomorrow.

So. I am better off than some other people in the country! (:


Which means.
Offically left school. 6th form. College.
Kinda makes me feel old.

Who will read this I do not know.
But.

I feel the need to say thankyou.
To say thank you to every person that i've met over the past two years from BC, and other people who i've met through them.
(I wont name you all)
You've given me some epic memories... that still actually make me chuckle now when I think about it all.
From army guys and fitties with accents to drunken banter to throwing chocolate at children on buses and asking for it back to prank calls to old people falling over in the snow to bald men on buses to funny wee sayings ("Everybody go UMMMM"... "Fishy... nipples!!!") to rolling down hills to camping to mega hangovers to cheerios in the early hours of the morn to underwear to perverts to sitting under the stars to convincing everyone we're lesbians from the island of lesbos to talking about how birds have sex to random paraletic dancing to having to sing while we pee to tyre swings to random toones to BBQs to christmas meals to birthdays... and thats only the begining!
You lot have always been there for me through thick and thin.
Put up with moaning and whining, been there when I needed tissues and ice cream and been there for the smiles and laughs!
I think I might push to say, that the last two years have been the best of my life to date.
And I hope we'll stay in touch.
And you'll all be very happy in whatever youve decided to do! (:
 


I'm making love to Maximo Park


Night falls
And towns become circuit boards
We can beat the sun as long as we keep moving

From the air
Stadium lights stand out like flares
And all I know is that you're sat here right next to me

We rarely see
Warning signs in the air we breathe
Right now I feel each and every fragment

This paper trail leads right back to you
You say you need me to step outside

You spent the evening unpacking books from boxes
You passed me up so as not to break a promise
Scattered polaroids and sprinkled words around your collar
In the long run, you said you knew that this would happen

Well this is something new
But it turns out it was borrowed, too
"why does every letdown have to be so thin?"

Rain explodes
At the moment that the cab door closed
I feel the weight upon your kiss; ambiguous

You have to leave. I appreciate that
But I hate when conversation slips out of our grasp


You spent the evening unpacking books from boxes
You passed me up so as not to break a promise
Scattered polaroids and sprinkled words around your collar
In the long run, you said you knew that this would happen

Two bodies in motion
This is a matter of fact
It wasn't built to last


You spent the evening unpacking books from boxes
You passed me up so as not to break a promise
Scattered polaroids and sprinkled words around your collar
In the long run, you said you knew that this would happen

The pounding rain continued it's bleak fall
And we decided just to write after all, after all,
The pounding rain continued it's bleak fall
And we decided just to write after all